Although I have not been to heaven, to his mother went to heaven Yes you are no stranger to me

 What stars? Is an energy-saving light ... light ... Mother's cotton-padded shoes drying on the balcony, yet she could not personally go back to closing, and can not put it on the owner's cotton-padded shoes out in the midday light, furnished with the same props as I hesitate: back to the right, still there, waiting for them to continue? many days the sun drying cotton shoes, although two may look like the lonely ah 37. Mother was a few months before death, often walk around, she will change daily walking route , not long to go through some of the old road she would suddenly suggested: to some a long time have not been to the old place, such as yueyahu, Sun Yat-sen, Sifang Cheng ... ... Some of us go with her, and some have not had time to accompany According to Nanjing Customs saying: dead before leaving to go the mother is old and frail, had a chance to complete a lot of desire, a lot of old friends and past events had a chance to say goodbye to some hurried away, but she has quietly say goodbye - and even that we did not notice, , do not go fully compensated for the number of footprints leave some footprints it, give me ... ... I can not find you, go look for your footprints bowl dishes cleaned the pool, looking for a candle could not find good news is she is very familiar with the housework, broken light bulbs can also see the mother as if she is guilty of heart disease, acute, the body of a lamp, said off went out no, her heart seemed fragile than the light bulb can replace the bad bulb can be for a good light bulbs, can no longer make my mother she seemed to disappear into the darkness that brief, the case of the kitchen table code is also neatly placed the dishes washed when she left, so carefully: even a bowl in the dark did not break this is fate: She missed breaking his own 39. to kill the loneliness of old age, the mother often holding the old Well a man singing the song book was bought for her brother, which are all old songs she learned to recognize musical notation, but also to remember the lyrics, you can still hold when the singing songbook, and seemed to roll over the side of the songbook as a person's company? desk of another song sheet full of pop songs, she rarely look through is not what she can not learn new songs, but prefer the old songs she sang old songs to yourself for the elderly, emotional singing Yue Changyue the singing, the old man to return to the past, old songs have become young: senescence is slow, and how easy it is rejuvenation, pleasant to the ear that you learn from the voice of silence This is probably lonely remote control it: late at night no show, she said, a blank mind, like a screen full of snow, can not sleep or listen to her here, I am very distressed to give her time to play if a long distance call to the how good if we can be there in her dreams nice snow Fen Yang, dream of me 41. I dream of mother, mother dreamed the dream, dreamed that she dreamed of streets, parks, train stations, how about the result? I dreamed her dream with me how my likeness a person, but inside than I am simple and sweet and not a moment he had left out in my career in the mother after the mother alone in her dream, I gave birth to another, is the shadow of betrayal to his hometown but also betrayed their with it? Her mother, breathless lungs still sail the same as the outgoing slip? eventually parked in the bed of the white hospital, I can only bow to God his Zhuzhidafu as a death certificate issued, the police station asked me how to do revocation procedures, I would like to him for help: Can the way for my mother in heaven an account? 43 . I stood by the window, nice here today, the sun standing position is usually the mother, her side of the sun while watching the original aim of the scenery I want to feel alive when her little happiness, understand, and previously I ignore the vision of a quiet and slow for the elderly will be back? No, mother did not take away, and left me as much as possible from her point of view with her perspective, feel that they melted on the inside of my mother share over the sun the sun Mother, you come to sun drying it, even if you look to borrow my body: the outside of the plane trees, family wings, a clothesline hung with sheets and blankets, have not changed Yeah 44. mother is in hospital, in bed, lonely days , let me see a little newspaper for the day she read the morning paper, and studying old newspapers, reading three days ago, the week before the day of ... ... as if she had backwards? news have become old news, she read the number of days is still fresh and needs to happen, help her get through the day in the hospital? world is changing rapidly, and her every minute is very slow: to forget their pain, had to put my attention to the newspaper Every time I go visit, to be drawn from their homes waste pile of a thick stack of newspapers mother died, there are a few bed did not finish her reading the newspaper will continue? to know that her interest in the world that is not Less news and old news is almost no difference to her 45. acacia trees on the door of the nest, summer, birds do in winter, become empty-nest mothers, I remember I walk with you, accompany you with upturned neck looking for a long time, you said: think ah: Mom, where have you been? Without you, the home becomes empty, not like a home weather was warm, birds will come back, but you never come back home do not forget the address of ah: Nanjing Ash tree below the highest, and the trees corresponding to even come back to the nest, you silently in my heart misses ... ... 46. mother is gone, I began to recognize the existence of heaven mother to another place and settled down, only thought that heaven is heaven very far away, or even very unreal, because the mother's sake, heaven become closer, it becomes like a paradise in the neighboring city also has a large population, infrastructure, house number, but also thoughts, In fact, I had no pain but do not believe heaven: I wish, mind are instantaneous power,UGG boots cheap, not into darkness, but this minute space, loss of memory for other things, in order to use the space to express doubt: ... What is the heart? heart is the body's powerhouse themselves unable to control emotions she knew she changed? know that old? I have to invent their own old, to understand the old mother, I would have old, old everyone, even my mother I will not be an exception old, will not,UGG boots, and will have a bad temper, maybe too old to still more ugly, as another person, like another person from another person I know changed? admit that the old it? Even then, I am still the mother of the son is the son of an old old mother who always easy to change from the old become young, it is difficult to watch my mother a year old, and helpless in fact I changing, a little bit older because I am getting older, the mother did look older I can not forgive the time, but wonder how can the mother old? even if she becomes like another person, is still my mother, ah me old mother 49. all these years in the field, always run into people who look like the mother, the elderly some profile, and some background images, and some face or manner, as if it is not in the field, I am sure people will admit, I almost called the wrong person will not be considered completely wrong in fact, they are indeed the mother, but someone else's mother left the mother a long time, like a mother is always known for a tap of the elderly more they want, the more likely met met, and will inevitably be more like, more like his mother always told me someone else's mother, mother a bit similar, after all, is the son of a mother's feelings of other people, will do with my mood a bit similar? Is Some people took to the streets to meet my mother every day, almost mistaken for his mother? last home, ready to talk about the coincidence with the mother, but she the first to say, she said she was just shopping, always look like I can meet people far to see that her heart is always Yi Chan: son, how did the pre-greeting to come back home? mother, do not blame you the wrong one, all my fault, blame the mother I left you too long, though You run into someone else's son, at that moment, put him as me 50. After the mother's funeral food, I would like also to give yourself to do something, to give yourself change their brains, and some adjustment depressed emotions happen to have a chance to travel to distant lands, to Guilin, a local folk songs were enthusiastically received a variety of tours arranged, visiting the West the next month to see musical sad ... ... do not want to cave to infect host and peer poet friends, I said nothing about lost her mother to see things no one minds I am a traveler, my mind only you know that only slowly on their own solutions On luxury cruise on the Lijiang River, sitting in the cabin companions drink tea and chat, I would like from their happy little further to go alone for a deck blowing air damper ah neither blown away my sorrow, but also difficult to The dilution: looking at the Castle green forest, mind emerges out of the mother's face, the two seem to overlap, voice-over a decade's funeral a few days ago ... ... your company needs, , but off in thought for the mother, as much with her walk, goes far, months after a point, a local poet, also called half-jokingly: Why did not we write poetry to give a word? Guilin's landscape is not enough too beautiful? Guilin Do not worry, more so on it, I'll make it to be finished to give my mother ah Guilin you write again I can see, it captive can not see the mother I want to see vain 51. mother in the world, I am the son of mother earth to heaven, I am the son of heaven I refuse to be a man without a mother, not to recognize the mother left this world, the world is still my mother, not to mention his mother to the heaven , heaven will be my mother, mother, son, no matter where people are there where the mother, where I took my mother as came here without knowing it, you lost,UGG boots clearance, I may not be more clear, this is a Black Friday! the most important message, do not believe it but I also can not believe you really will be lost in the ashes the day, so many people give you flowers, accept it that day, the road to play at your feet a knot that day, you wear a new dress last, but also the point of makeup, like a journey ... ... the do something for you then? too late, never too late to repent inner restraint, stop In the chimney, I can only give their own point of a cigarette 53. the first mother, hug my childhood she was so young: half of the mother, the other half is still young, has not been shattered illusions and sorrow Ever since I was born, her dream more, considerable part of preparing to leave me for her to realize Oh, my dream is to be the traditional hard memories, to see her: for the first time sent me to kindergarten, at the door and walked away, I did not cry, she She was crying hate this day! This day I will belong to someone else experiencing the mother of the first initial separation, with the increase in the number, she will mature: with my sorrow will be greater than the growth of fantasy, as she gradually ruined girl's own good vision I saw her still standing there, stood alone in front of it demolished kindergarten,cheap UGG boots, very reassuring because the original like me, only the first initial of the mother because the mother, and I just never grow up: What other words to say to me irresistible for a crash, I was late for the rescuers come Zaichi, the mother will be waiting for me to mother's voice has disappeared, and she is still alive need to decipher the silence? I itself is the greatest secret of her ... ...